Osho: This will be your new name... and a new birth. Let the past
be dropped as if it were part of a dream, as if it belonged to
somebody else, as if you had seen it in a movie that you were just a
witness to and not a participant in - just a watcher, a spectator,
That is the best way to drop all the burden that the past naturally creates. There is no need to fight with it. In fighting it you remain attached to it; in fighting it you remain obsessed with it; in fighting, it remains. At the most you can press it back into your unconscious, but it will be there. It will move into the underground of your being, will become part of your basement but will go on affecting your life from there. So the best way is never to fight. To fight means one is ready to get defeated; it is self-defeating. The best way to win is not to fight. Just drop it! Just have the awareness that you are a watcher... and that's how it is!
Whatsoever has happened to you in your life and whatsoever you have done, deep down your inner being has been just a witness to it; it has never been a doer. It is always transcendental. When you are angry, it is standing far away and looking at your anger. When you are cleaning the floor, it is standing far away and looking at you cleaning the floor. You are young and it is looking, you become old and it is looking; you are happy it is looking, you are unhappy it is looking. It is always just there, standing by the side; it never gets involved. It remains pure and untouched by all experience whatsoever: neither good makes it good, nor bad makes it bad.
That purity, that innocence, is always there. It is ours to claim: it has just to be recognised. So with the new name forget the old and drop the past.
This will be your new name: ma Prabhu Praveeta
Prabhu means god and Praveeta means pregnant - pregnant with god. And you are pregnant with god; that has been your search for many lives. You have been groping in the dark but the search has been there. And unless god is born in you, you will never feel contented, you will never feel satisfied. Nothing less than god will help, nothing less will do... and that can happen!
That is the easiest thing in the world to happen because it is our innermost nature. We are made in the image of god, we carry the seed inside: it just needs right soil, right nurturing, right nursing, and it will sprout. That's what I mean by pregnant. Everybody is pregnant with god but very few people are fortunate enough to give birth.
You can become one of those fortunate ones. Just trust and courage - almost the courage of a madman - is needed. The courage of a fool is needed because it is such an impossible adventure that clever people cannot go into it; their very cleverness prevents them. Calculating people cannot have any god; their very calculation is against them.
Only people who are innocent childlike, in a way primitive, mad, can take the jump - because they can trust that the impossible is also possible.
The moment you believe that the impossible is possible it becomes possible - because it is all our belief. As a man thinketh, so he becomes. It is all our idea: if we think we are unhappy, we are unhappy; if we think we are not unhappy, we are not unhappy. It is just that we go on creating a certain vibe around ourselves by thinking it continuously. If somebody lives in misery it is his own fiction.
It is just like people who go to the movie to see a horrible film: they know it is horrible but they want to see it. And they suffer in the film; they go through all kinds of torture because they become identified. Still they pay and go; they pay for it! They know it is just a film, and it is horrible, but they want to see it.
It is exactly the same case in life: there are people who want to remain in misery; that is their decision. There are people who don't want to remain in misery; that is their decision. And you choose your life; it is all your choice. The moment you want to change, you can change it - just like that.
So let this sannyas be a radical change in your pattern of life. From this moment think of god, from this moment look for god, from this moment whatsoever you see, try to find god in it. It may be a rock, but god is rock in a rock. It may be a tree, but god is tree in a tree. It may be a child giggling, but god is child in a child, god is giggling in giggling.
Go on looking for god. By and by you will see that this whole universe is his temple and we are not to go somewhere else to find him. He is here, he has always been here... just a recognition was missing.
How long will you be here?
Prabhu Praveeta: I wanted to ask your advice on that. I can stay six weeks or eight weeks and then go back to do some work and come back later on for a longer time.
Osho: When can you come back?
Prabhu Praveeta: Well, I'd like you to tell me. I would need about six months, I think to finish the work, or is it better to try and stay longer now and forget about the work?
Osho: What kind of work is it?
Prabhu Praveeta: It's a book that I've been writing for some years. It's nearly finished and I'm interested in it, but if it's better to just forget about it and just stay longer here...
Osho: What are you writing about?
Prabhu Praveeta: It's a historical study of Francis Bacon. It's a historical study about what historians can do to the reputation of a man who was loved in his time and was hated and treated very badly in the nineteenth and twentieth centuries and still is, and how history plays with all this.
Osho: Mm... good! Bacon is one of the most important persons to think about. Good! - go and finish it.(Osho - The Further Shore #19, a darshan diary)